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i feel really bad today.

First comes the headache, then the work things.

but the thing trouble me a lot is the attitude of work.

i think that i m a hard working but not smart person. anyway.... i do think that i can make something to be changed by hard working. Well....it seems that nothing is changing according to the comment of Mr. A.

i have been suffering a lot. i wonder should i give the job up cuz i am really not a well organized people. However, it means that i wanna step back....NO..... i can't be the past me again......How i can remember those things seriously....

i do want to change so bad.

ah.........killing me.